I’ve set a few opening days now and have come to the conclusion that it’s best to keep my mouth shut. I am anxious and eager to start, I picked April 22nd as THE day, Earth Day, what a great day to open since I will be running an earth friendly cafe. Despite all good intentions though there are forces (govern‘mental‘ departments, among others) out there that just don’t care what my schedule is or how great the date would have been. Without getting into (ranting) details about the latest hold up/ set back/ delay, I’ll just say that I will be… opening soon.
I should know better really as it seems that throughout this whole process, when I can finally check one item off my ‘to do’ list, another magically appears at the same moment. It was while adding to my ever present list that I had an epiphany of sorts about the opening, which is my dream, and my life. While writing, “make an ‘Opening SOON’ sign for the front window” the words ‘just let it go’ reverberated in my mind. I’m not sure why but I have a theory now, reasonable…maybe not to most, rational…certainly to me. You see (gonna get deep here) since arriving in Bear River I’ve had an ever present, sometimes overwhelming feeling that I am living a dream. Not a planned one, not even one that I fantasized about when I was out in corporate never-never land, but one that is unfolding before me on a daily basis.My life, like my nightly dreams can not be predicted. Dreams take all manner of twists and turns, sometimes they make no sense, they can be scary, leave me feeling exposed, perplexed, melancholy, happy, sad, angry and even impassioned. They are dreams, ever changing always interesting dreams. I dream them when I sleep and I live them when I wake. I am living a dream every day, every moment.
The epiphany…let it be, let it happen, it will unfold like my dreams, like my life.
Opening day…Opening soon!!!